Waking up in the middle of the night, penning down my thoughts. Feeling sadness as it was like yesterday. Poverty creep into my life. Lost of love. Drifting away from my aim and my life goal. What is this? Why is this? What's happening to me?
All this question lingering in my mind right now. What should i do now....?
I work my ass all this life just to reach that place and suddenly i lost it all.
I'm beginning to felt that i am worthless, i was useless. Is it because i gave up?
No...The answer is NO. I didn't gave up so easily. I strive so hard yet failed. I've tried so many times yet stranded. Someone up there is playing a prank on me.
I can't admit i'm not good. Cause i've survived 5 times, yet i managed to get hold of it and kept running. When is this marathon will be over? So don't ever try asking me to pray to him for hopes and lucks.
If you ever see this CAT, would like to say thanks for being there for a short moment. I love being your friends and i love being myself too. Our characteristics really clashes between each other. You're a strong opponent, but i got to kept myself running. I got to do this once again. Hope miracles happen. Thanks and good night~!
