Sorry but i have to said this, " That's it! I'm leaving my past behind, and i'm leaving you.....I'm leaving my jobs and move to somewhere else to stay " I'm moving out..Don't worry, I am not going to delete this blogs....it is just that i'm moving on ...to somewhere ...someplaces to stress out my mind.....I am only moving my myself! Get isolated and be on my own.
Sorry but it is not related to anybody or anyone. I felt depressed this few years due to ??. Until then, I will not do any posting on this blogs for a period of time. I will only continues with blogging when i'm back home.
You stayed. Because you believe in something. I don't have a future if i stay in the same spot......for now. Someday like me you will realise all that sacrifices than you've done worth nothing to that person. At that time you'll know what to do and what you shud do. Perhaps, being alone and moving out is the solution.
But I want you to know that I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being so rude, unintelligent, childish, selfish,
aggressive, hopeless, and to care too much that i interfere your life and the way it's supposed to be.
I'm sorry for caring when I said I did not, loving when I said I would not. I'm sorry for throwing away the wonderful life you offered. I'm sorry for not respecting myself enough to know that my self-loathing was being spilled over onto you. I don't know what the source of these problems is, but it's not you. I've blamed you, and I am wrong. I love you the only way I know how to love a person, which doesn't seems fit perfect in the eyes of someone who loves as much as you do. I'm so sorry. Don't think about forgiveness...just know that I wish you nothing more than peace.
Lastly what i wanted to say is....."Sorry but i'm leaving everything in the past behind and moving on with my own life." And " I'm just glad....i did (Thanks to the courage that i have).
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